Diary
2024-11-21
sunny
Fri
anxious
I have been with Xiao Nuo for around 3 monthes, I don't love her, virtually, she's old, innocent, poor, and with crow's feet. But I still don't break up with her, because I'm afriad of lonley, I'm afraid of being alone, I'm looking for next girlfriend already, when I got next one, I'll kick her away ruthlessly.
She's pretty nice to me, I have never met a girl who is as perfect as she can be. But, she's too old, she's going to 30, and she looks like 35! ultimately, I don't love her.
First time we meet each other only because I'm practicing picking up art, and we had sex at next day. My dick dose pluged in her pussy, but only for several thrust. And I used wrong verbal trick while sucking her nipple: "Could you love me huh? baby, I want real love, I want you love absolute me rather than just love current."
Then she said yes, and "I also want to love real you, so can we please give each other some time to know oppisite."
Based on the frame "I want we truly love each other" that I established it by my hand and the atmosphere at that time, I have to gave up.
So next weekend I came to her city, we had real sex and confirmed that we are in relationship.
Shit! I don't love her at all!
She teachs me how to cook, hold a birthday party, introduce me to her mother, sister and friends. I don't know how to say.
Here is the birthday scenery she prepared for me:

Photo she took for me, you can see a sad face, on one side, I became older, other side, I'm in a relationship that I don't expected.

You can see the bored emotion from my face:

Can you believe me she forces me take the Blowing candle picture again in light.

Ask me take posture as she want:

Feed me homemade barbecue with heavy garlic and scallion, cause me stomache pain.

Take me to beach comb, smear mub on my clean jeans, and I even lost one of my socks, I can only wear a plastic bag on my left feet.

She forces me comb beach until 7 PM, and it's illegal in this area.

She's pretty pride that I braid her pants up proactively, so she took this photo:

Fake smile:

Fake smile puls:
